hellloooooo :D
i hope to use my blog as my diary and a place to just rant about random things. right now, i have no blog template but that will change soon enough. i guess i will use this first blog post to talk about the current state of my website, plus the future.

currently, my website is not very good to be honest. right now as i am writing this, my intro page is finished but it's so ugly i hate it. and then my about me is kind of finished, but i should probably update the text to be more informational and important. my interests page is 'done' but it doesn't have information. my drawing portfolio and credits page has not been started yet (sadly). maybe i will try to just put credits and not have a stylesheet attached to the page yet. i am very lazy though and don't have a lot of motivation sadly. this might be a little off topic but my depression has been preventing me from doing basic hygenic things like showering and brushing my teeth. i still do it but it takes a lot more effort than neurotypical people. my depression also makes me have no motivation to do things i love and genuinely want to do. i haven't made a lot of progress on my website over the course of 6 months since i got my laptop and was able to work properly on neocities, which disappoints me. i have also been lacking in making art, and i dislike it so much. i should do so much better but my disability prevents my freedom and happiness. in the future, i hope to make my website presentable and actually fun to visit, plus i hope i don't leave it untouched for months like i did. maybe doing this passion project will bring me out of my depressive state. i don't know the proper terms for depression but i will just randomly just not have motivation and be very unhygenic even though i feel very happy in life and not depressed at all. it's very odd but it happens and i do not know the term for it! this post got very personal, but it's my page so i can do whatever i want :D my blog posts will have comment sections, so please be respectful. i wanted to add comments because i will have lots of very opinionated rants and i want people to express their opinions too, i just hope people won't be too rude about it. ok bye hunnies hope you have a good day!!
(6/2/2026)

edit:the blog is officially out and has css applied to it now :) dark mode is sadly not available yet...